Dear Diary,
Today I’ve picked up my pen once again. Usually, there are various reasons to which why I’m writing; when I’m happy, inspired, nervous & etc.
But today I’m writing because I’m upset.
I’m a wandering child ever since I’m borned to this world. I knew that since the age of 16 as wanderlust became part of my soul. I really love to take pictures and travel, couldn’t really get sick of that really. Now a phase of life is about to move to the next, and that is furthuring my eduxation – University. It has always been my dream to go overseas to study, experience and explore how foreign lands are like. However I’ve got 2 problems before I can start on all that dream.
1. Am I good enough for what I think I’m capable of?
I brushed off this question without much thought when I’m 16. I had confidence and thought that with hard work and practice, I can land myself somewhere. But 5 years later, where I’m standing now, I’m beginning to doubt myself. Doubt myself not because I’m lazy, but rather there are so many much more talented people out there. It’s going to be really tough standing amongst the skyscrapers when I’m starting on a fresh new paper venturing to media.
2. Parents.
My parents won’t let me. Its pretty much a dead-end to be honest; Mum’s clutching me so tight and not wanting to let me go, Dad says yes and decided maybe next time *which prolly wouldn’t happen. Gosh..
There has to be a way right? Being who I am, and always been, giving up isn’t something I’m good at if I really want something.
I’ll figure things out.